Be Happy

As salam,,,

Hello everyone!

It has been a wonderful day to me. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah =') One of the best gift from HIM. The day before yesterday, result came out and i am happy for it. I longing such result for so long. I knew i will get it one day. But i know, ALLAH hears what i want and HE gives it because HE knows what best for me and what i need. Not to forget my parents who constantly gives Dua for me. Dua of parents especially from mothers are an absolute Dua. I thanked to them and i believe part of my result is coming from their Dua.

Congratulations to all of my friends. I know they already did the best! Whatever result you get, it was the best and don't fret. We still have another 5 semesters =)

The situation is normal when some of your friends get higher achievement then you do and you start feel envy or jealous. I do fall into such situation. I start to comparing myself with them. I start to questioning my ability. Where did i wrong? Why i can't get the same result like them? I had try my best but why? I have been into a school where most of the students are excellent students. They got 3.5 each of the semester. No kidding. Some of them get 100% for Add math while i fail for it! How can i not be jealous???

One day, i opened the Quran and i found this verse,,,

And do not wish for that by which Allah has made some of you exceed others. For men is a share of what they have earned, and for women is a share of what they have earned. And ask Allah of his bounty. Indeed Allah is ever, of all things, Knowing.

(Al-Nisa : 32)

 Dan janganlah kamu iri hati limpah kurnia yang Allah telah berikan kepada sebahagian dari kamu (untuk menjadikan mereka) melebihi sebahagian yang lain (tentang harta benda, ilmu pengetahuan atau pangkat kebesaran). (Kerana telah tetap) orang-orang lelaki ada bahagian dari apa yang mereka usahakan, dan orang-orang perempuan pula ada bahagian dari apa yang mereka usahakan; (maka berusahalah kamu) dan pohonkanlah kepada Allah akan limpah kurnianya. Sesungguhnya Allah sentiasa Mengetahui akan tiap-tiap sesuatu.

( 4 : 32 )

Then i pondered, do i have to get jealous with their result? No, i don't have to because in that verse teach me  that everyone will get what they have worked out. Effort what is important. Outcomes reflect your effort. In fact i should be happy because they are my friends and seeing them happy makes me happy. Well said Wafa, lolXD But there is an exception, if you are jealous make it as an inspiration to boost your spirit to achieve an excellent result for the next exam. Yeahhh!! =D

"Ilmu yang bermanfaat adalah ilmu yang diamalkan dalam kehidupan kita"

- Imam Al-Ghazali - 

p/s : Believe in HIM, remember HIM everyday, thanks to HIM, tell HIM, ask HIM, and smile.

Pelancongan Domestik

As salam,,,

Hi yalls!

Alhamdulillah, finally, the day has come. My parents coming today! Along with my bro and my aunty! Yeayeayeayeayeayeay!! Beselah,,,anak blajar kat Sarawak, alang2 tuh pergi la makan hangin sekali =P I tak kisah pun kalau my parents nak tiap2 minggu ke bulan ke datang makan angin kat Sarawak, (kalau ekao banyak duit xpo lah yo) because my parents, dyorang suke berjalan sebenarnyer. In fact when my sis and bro were little, my parents suke sgt bawak dyorang ni pergi jenjalan. But, when it comes to my childhood, hilang sudah suma bende itu. HahaXD I don’t mind. When you get old, mood2 nak jenjalan ni dah hilang. Mana nak larat pergi jauh2. Mengharapkan si anak yang membawa mereka pergi berjalan2. Kiranya, my parents dtg sini, I bawak pergi jenjalan la. Puas hati dapat tgk dyorang travel even though percutian domestik saja but what is worth is the happiness that they gain. I am glad, I am here at Sarawak so I can bring them to explore the Sarawak. I wish to bring them to rumah panjang ke, meet the peoples there, to see how beautiful Sarawak is. Maybe one day ke. =D

My mom always told me, “Nanti adik dah kerje jadi Felo ke nanti, bawaklah mak pergi jenjalan kat Sarawak,,,mana tahu adik dpt kerja kat Sabah ke, bawak mak pergi jenjalan kat sana pulak”. Mak sy suke sgt kalo sy jadi Felo, I don’t know why but I told my mom yg I nak jadi tutor. Last2 my mom kata, “Ha,takpelah,,,dah Rina minat yg tu.” Love you mom <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

I dreams to bring my parent pergi China yg tempat2 China muslim tu. I know that they will love it. And I want to go to Forbidden City. To see the Ancient China. To see tempat tinggal Raja2 zaman Dinasti like Ching , Ming.  To see the place where the Concubines live before. The beautiful lakes and amazing architecture. To see the pintu gerbang that they use for the bride to came in into the Forbidden City. And bnyk la lagi. I like China’s History.  Last but not least, the food! lolXD

But before travel overseas, I wanted to travel around Malaysia first. Baru layak kan pergi luar Negara. Hehe~ Actually, doesn’t matter pun if you tak travel negeri2 yg ada kat Malaysia ni. But for me, see the Malaysia first. Then baru ada rase, wahhh,,,cantik nyer Negaraku ini. Yes! Memang cantik. The meaning of cantik for me maybe tak sama dengan orang lain kan. It depends. Lengkapkanlah dulu destinasi percutian domestik sebelum melengkapkan percutian ke luar Negara. Chehhh,,,what a description! lolXD

Now, when i am here at Sarawak, baru rase, bnyk lagi kat Malaysia ni yg ak tak explore. Serious. The negeri2 yg I dah lawat, Pahang, Kelantan, Terengganu, Melaka, Penang, Negeri Sembilan of course lahh kan XP and Sarawak. Sabah, Perlis, Perak, Kedah, Johor , I tak pernah lagi. Kesian kan,,,johor pun tak pernah. Bukan Johor I tak pernah tapi pernah sekali, beli langsir kat Tangkak masa umur 10 tahun tak silap la. Perak pun pernah, sebab rumah makcik I ada kat Tanjung Malim. Sabah, Insy-ALLAH, kalo diizinkan oleh ALLAH,,,mmg nak pergi since kawan pun ramai dari sana. My mom da approve kan dah utk I pergi bercuti kat Sabah.hehe=) Asalkan ada kawan2 yg pergi sekali.

P/S : I love Malaysia<3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

An answer that i need to find in my life.

As salam,,,

Here i am! Sitting on my favorite place in CAIS and all alone. Kesian nyer bunyi ae~ Yela, CAIS pun x ramai orang, brape kerat je yg dtg mentelaah buku. Reason why i came to CAIS bcoz nak internet laju je. Bole tgk youtube and tgk movies. Download some songs ka and read books. Since all my friend da sampai kat rumah, I still terpacak kat UNIMAS lagi. Never mind, I love being here anyway. But na jenjalan,,,hmm,,,oh ya, recently i just thought that i want keluarga angkat kat Sarawak ni. Senang skit, kalo pe2 hal jadi ke,,,at least ad org yg tgkkan. And one more thing, i hope to see how peoples here punye life in a family kan. I dont mind if i get a non-muslim nyer family. Lagi suke =) But nak cari nyer I don't know how. Hope somebody willing to help me. Mesti wonder kan why i like non muslim family angkat? Even though susah sbb you have to take care you nyer aurat and eating la and perform a prayer. Pastu rase bersalah pun ada la because of the differences. Tak try x thu kan? Well, i like to experience something different. I want to feel the differences.

Am i afraid? Yes. Am i excited? Yes.

I am afraid because i might getting away from what i supposed to do. Ok, senang citer tkut jauh dr ALLAH. Because u have been a  place where there is no one yg muslim and there is no one yg mengingatkan u about ALLAH. Lagipun, the way they live is far from a muslim family la kan. Takut terpengaruh. Yup. That yg I tkut. Same like I want to be an participant observer one day- Insy-ALLAH- where you have to live in a stranger place. A place that is differences from your way of life. To have to observe tu ok la kan but becoming the participant in their everyday life. That I risau. If some of their everyday life tu contradict to your religion mcm na? Takkan you na ikut? If you tak ikut, how you want to become a REAL participant observer then? you're not fully participate. I didn't find any of the answer yg dpt legakan hati I lagi. I don't want to think it susah because bile dah set kan mind susah, the consequences will be susah. It same when you want to judge people, once you da set kan mind you that people is tak baik la,jahat la. Benda baik dalam diri org tu or perkara baik yg org tu da buat you tak nampak dah.Sama jugak la kan, bila you kate diri you je yg betul, takde yg salah, mmg tak la nak nampak kesalahan sendiri dan susah nak terima teguran orang lain.

Tapi one thing yang I rase, na cari ALLAH tu, tak kisah pun kat mana you berada. Sebab ALLAH tu ada kat mana2 je. Sesetengah orang laen cara dia cari ALLAH tu, or islam tu sendiri. Tak boleh na kate jalan nak cari ALLAH tu fixed. Islam is flexible. Paling penting kene percaya dan yakin ALLAH tu and pray a lots. Ada orang jumpe islam tu kat tempat yg bukan muslim majority nyer. I pun pelik. Acamano tu? Hidayah ALLAH tu sgt luas. Kene cari. Kene usaha. I believe in that.

Kadang2 bile blajar antropologi and sosiologi ni sgt mencabar dan takut. Tak thu la kalo I sorang je yg rase. Because u might encounter something yang opposite dgn religion. Waktu tu la, otak I fikir punye fikir punye fikir. Kadang2 kecewa sebab agak sukar nak cari jawapan tapi I tahu, cannot give up because finally I dah jumpe course yg betul2 buat I enjoyed study. So, why should I stop? I believe sume masalah ada jalan penyelesaian and I should find it till I puas hati. Bukan senang nak cari satu subject yg you betul2 minat dan enjoyed. That what i feel la kan.

I just reached 20 years old. Still a lot of time for me to find the answer. Alhamdulillah, ALLAH bg bernafas lagi. I have to find as many experience as i can. Experience is the MOST VALUABLE thing yg boleh dapat free saje. Easy kan? =)

Marriage

As salam,,,

Howdy peeps!

Just this lately, i’ve been thinking about meaning of marriage. Yes, we are talking about marriage. Suke kan? Hehe~ This question came out while i’m reading the social sciences slide and been wondering about it for quite sometimes. Definition of marriage is:

“The union of a man & a woman, or various combinations thereof, living together in a sexual relationship with the expectation of producing offspring”

I will say that this definition is almost correct. When we come into the definition of something, it is difficult to produce a total correct definition of it. Trust me, in one of the lecture of Communication and Society, we have to define a chair and after we define it, but there must be lack of something. Thus, it is not totally wrong but almost correct. The same when we want to define Religion. According to Durkheim, one of the famous figures in ansos, stated that it is really hard to give a specific meaning to the word religion because we have to consider the cultural diversity.

For me marriage means to foster sense of safety, security and belonging. Well, of course we do have God who watches us 24 hours and totally safe, Insy-ALLAH but because of HIS love, He gives us someone that can take care of us in this dunya. He knows what we want and He actually fulfil it. When He will give it? We don’t know so be patient la kan. I pun tgh be patient ni ^^V Dont worry be happy. I know sometimes we tend to follow our desired and hard to control. We’re just human that why we have god to help us. Ask for his guidance and make duas everyday,everytime,anywhere in any languages ,English,BM,Sarawak ke,sabah ke,korea ke,jepun ke,,,He definitely will understand because He was perfect. Whatever that is exist in this world, He knows :D

My ustazah has told to us once, if you want to pray, no need to be formal, just talk like we talk to our parent ka,sibling ka...cam bese. Example, “Hari ni kan Ya ALLAH, ak rase hepy sgt sebabnyer ak dpt jawab exam dgn baik, Terima kasih ya ALLAH’’ ataupun yg ni, “Hari ni kan Ya ALLAH,,ak nampak dye senyum,,,suke2! Tp kan Ya ALLAH, ak tahu ak mesti jage hati ak ni,,Ya ALLAH maaf kalau ak melampaui batas, lindungilah hati ak ni ya ALLAH drpd perkara2 yg x baik.” Simple kan? J

We always read peoples’ post on FB saying that better you telling your feeling to ALLAH than the FB. It’s true but still no wrong in posting about your feeling or opinion onto something in FB but be control. Ustaz Don had mentioned about this issue, I know that most of us want to be a excellent muslim and mukmin but the capacity of each of us in doing something is different. When you want to say that you must only tell your feeling to ALLAH, looked at the subject or the people that you projected to. Is he or she someone who really pious? Or just orang bese? If he or she was a totally pious person, then go ahead with the statement. But if they were the latter, better telling them “it is ok to luahkan perasaan kat FB but must be choose and control.”

Actually i wanted to talked about marriage but tersasar jauh pulak.huu.Never mind, we can always continue. The most important thing that should have in a marriage is faith. Some of the married couples have to be far apart because of the work mostly. Away to do some research la kan,,,i think will become one of it...anyway, the role of faith played the important part here. I believe, as long as you believe in you partner, jauh mane pun terpisah, lama mane pun terpisah, sikda padam bara cinta dalam hati ya.

Marriage terbina atas dasar the understanding and the feeling of believe, secure you had for someone before marry with them. Understanding here mean you accept the way your partner is. Some peoples think that the more sameness you get with your partner such as hobby, food, drink ka, the more understanding you are or compatible. For me, it is ok if it was not the same because the different between you and the partner what make you more understand and compatible. Saling melengkapi dan memerlukan orang kate kan. Kalo dah dua2 asyik same je dari setiap sudut, bosan kot,,,dull, x interesting. But xde lah sume x same,mesti ada chemistry gak,,,mathematic ke,fizik ke,,,hahaXD  And that chemistry is something that will come when it is the time.

So,,,this is my opinion and principal. Different peoples, different principal, ways, opinion. Itulah ciri manusia kan, unik. Apa2 or mane2 pendapat sy raikan. Seronok dgr pendapat org boleh menambah ilmu J

p/s : 2 papers lagi,,,pastu abis exam!... Final sem 1 drpd 6 sem,,,hahaXD

Wordless Thursday

As salam,,,

I hate good ending. I want that good be forever with me. If it was end, remembering it was painful to me. I will be missing it. So damn hurtful. Asking question like why do we have ending merely solve nothing. Live on reality not fantasy. When peoples want to escape from something, they will create a world where they build there own dreams with no obstacles. If it was in reality, that was impossible. Life were meant to be difficult and lot of obstacles. Hate it, like it or not....the only option is to accept it.

Well, there is a reason why i wrote this thing....next week will be study week and that mean ending of first semester will be coming soon. Time flies so fast. I do realize. Others were excited to go home but me,,,don't know how to describe. Terasa macam na pergi sabah pulak,,,ehehe ^^ Pelik kan,,,kalo org tnyer, takkan x na balik rumah kot? Eh,,skati ak la~ lalala~ Kat rumah,ak akn jadi statik. Ak ni bukan org statik. Tahu x org statik tu ap? iaitu duduk suatu tempat x wat ape2. Owhhh,,,sgt bukan diriku. Mesti na kuar,jenjalan,,,i do enjoy walking around and if it a work, i do enjoy "busy" work. Ak penah bgthu kwn matrik ak,,,masa tu ak jadi bendahari and ak mmg busy time tu. Bukan stakat bendahari je ak jadi, AJK hadiah pun ak yg handle. Ak x gila kuasa. Dah ad org offer amik la kan. Peluang utk belajar bende baru terutama skali bab2 pengurusan organisasi ni. Ak bgthu dye, ak seronok sgt buat kerje ni, walaupun busy, ak seronok, busy yang bermakna. Penat yg berbaloi. Berkerjasama dgn org2 yg hebat.

Itu maknanya, kepuasaan dari segi hati sgt bernilai dan sgt x rugi. Gembira + penat + seronok + dpt pengalaman baru + dpt kwn baru + enjoy = Kepuasaan hati yg mantap ^_^ Ada org sgt menekan kepuasaan dr segi material dan wang. Ak x menafikan bende tu penting but we have to balance. That thing can be gone anytime. Can be dull and boring. Takkan na hidup mcm tu. Bile hidup kat U ni, otak ak kadang2 teringat kat kat movie 3 Idiots. Point cerita tu ialah, belajar sambil enjoy. Belajar tu harus tp dgn cara yg enjoy. Mgkin x sume org mcm tu tp for me, i prefer that.

Actually, i've no idea na tulis apa,,,tibe2 je idea sume ni kluar. Tanpa membuang masa, terus menukilkannya di blog yg da lama x dih"update" ni. Berhabuk sudah. Anyway, all the best for final exam and i wish to score the best.

p/s : Da la cuti ni balik 22 jan, abis exam 11 jan,,mmg ak x thu na wat pe,,, hmm,,can someone bring me jenjalan in sarawak?

Malaysia itu Indah sebenarnya...

As salam and Greeting~

Hi y'oll,,,ap punya bahasa tah kan,,,merosakkan~ jgn tiru k,,,iboh tiru k,,,

Anyway,it such a long time and i hardly wrote anything. Sbb seronok duk kat sini smpai x tersempat nak tulis,hehe~ Many of my friends asking me,"apa yg bestnyer kat sana (sarawak)?". My answered, "dtg la sini klo na thu". Jawapan malas sebenarnyer tu, kalo na diikutkan best kat sini. Totally different from peninsular. One thing la kan why i like sarawak,,is because of their faces. Their faces were beautiful and very native-looked...ya,native. It was like,here is the other part of Malaysia which is unique and beautiful and amazing and i wish i could know it earlier and now i know how BEAUTIFUL Malaysia is,,,i know that Malaysia is not that dull,,,kalo kat semenanjung tu, 3 kaum tu je la yg main dalam kepala otak. Tak ke bosan? tak thu la kan, ke ak sorang je yg rase.dont know la kan...kmk sik tauk klo kmk sorang jak rse. (Since i learn the ansos, i was being carefully with the term of races and ethnicity^^ because we had been taught of the meaning, it was amazing and now i know what is the "real" race and ethnicity,,,)

Thank God that i had been chosen to take anthropology and sociology a.k.a ansos in UNIMAS. Right now, what i can say is, the course matched with my personality. I can expressed my feeling through it. It is about human which is what i wanted to know the most in my life because humans is unique and when i say unique, each of them is different. Not all the same. Because of that,,,humans are diverse and problems will arises. I want to seek the way to solve it because i hate to see riot, i hate to see people arguing on each other in an aggressive way by saying bad words, i hate chaos....i want peace,,,,even in a family,,i cried when i see my parents arguing, i cried when i see what happening in Malaysia right now.I did. My question is, why?? Don't we have brain given by god to think?, don't we have tongue given by god to spread nice words to the others? why don't we use that properly? Think is to find a solution to all of these problems. Indeed it will be though, even the social scientist such as Durkheim, Marx, Weber take a long time to observe and came up with an idea and solution to this problems.

I wish i could came up with some kind of theory that can be use as a solution. But, my mind still on the reality. Even though there are thousands solutions, it can never be totally solved. It can but not all. At least there are some solutions to make an aid to the society. Sometimes i think, i dream big but can i ever make it?   who knows right,,,only God knows it. But don't hope to much,,, just go with the flow.

p/s : sem satu mahu abis sudah,,,may this coming second sem will be more better...God willing,,,aamiin =)

Sarawak,,, i am coming again!

As salam,,,

Lama gilak kamek sik tulis dalam blog ni. Rindu,,rindu=D haha,my first attempt wrote in bhs melayu Sarawak in this blog. First time ak dgr bhs sarawak ni mase kecik2 dulu time iklan Maybank yg sorang perempuan ni dari Sarawak blajar kat overseas call parent dye and speak bhs Sarawak with her mom. The first word that i learned from her in bhs Sarawak is "engak irau". The commercial break show her father had a harimau tatoo if i not mistaken at his betis and her mom told that do not worry,her father is strong~^^

At that moment,i started to think that how is the Sarawak peoples? How is the Sarawak places look like? it was very attracted to me,, ni lah yg bermain dlm fikiran ak. 8 years ago,i had been to Sarawak with my family. One of the reasons of courselah wanted to have a nice vacation and the sweet part is my father want to give me chance to naik belon~ awwww,,,touching sy =') we go Sri Aman and lived at my father's friend house.

The best moment is when my father's friend brought us to rumah panjang. Masa tu kan ak kecik lagi,so dalam otak ak pun berlegar2 ayat2 sume."owh,,rumah panjang,,ada belajar kat sekolah ni,dye panggil rumah panjang sebab rumah dye memang panjang pastu tinggi,,,". Inilah pemikiran kanak2 aku.

Sesampai ak di rumah panjang tu, i saw many pokok lada. Again bermain2 dlm otak ak utk membina ayt,,,"aah,,yela,,,kan ada belajar kat sekolah yg kat sarawak ada banyk pokok lada,,mcm na rse skit pulak,,"  Masuk2 je rumah panjang tu,the spaces inside the house is wide and there are many doors leads to the family room.I guess.I heard there were someone watching the TV inside the room and they have astro. Hebat kan mereka?? =)

Then,they served us with biskut and air teh =) all of them gathered around us and only my father's friend je yg speak with them because only him can understand what they are talking about. There was one of these peoples talking to my brother and my brother just anguk2,,,then i think,"abg ni faham ke ap orang tu ckp?" then my father's friend mencelah,,,yg ni ak fhm ap yg my father's friend try to speak,,,dye ckp kat org tu yg abg ak ni x reti ckp bhs dyorang pun,,,just abg aku ni je buat2 faham.Ak time tu na tersenyum ada,tergelak ada,,,malu my bro,,hahaXD

One thing la kan,after we finished minum,,,they will tuang air teh tu. For the first time is ok la kan,,then for the many times,,after we finished je minum air teh tu,they again will tuang and tuang air teh inside our cup. Then i monolog,"kalo mcm ni bile na habis ni,,,kang x abis minum kang rasa bersalah pulak,,,tapi bila habis minum kang,mesti org tu tuang lagi,,,mcmne niiii~~" My father's friend pun ckp la kat my family,,,dyorang memang suke tuang air after the guest abis minum.,,,Owhhhhh,they treated us very nice la =D

Actually mase ak dtg umah panjang tu,they having a problem. How did i know,from my father's friend la. I didnt quite remember what was the problem but the idea is that dyorang ada masalah dalam menentukan ketua rumah panjang tersebut. A long story. I think masa dulu,they should be this guy yg jadi ketua but then time tu he is still a young boy,so x ley jd ketua because muda lagi kot.Someone else yg gantikan but now he is no longer a young boy anymore and he should become the leader. The problem is maybe he didn't want to become the ketua kot,,,something like that la the story. Tu je la yg ak ley ingat~

While we were gathered,there is a one girl,,,i like her because she is sooo beautiful. Putih melepak,have a long black hair and cantik laa. Jeles ak time tu. Masa tu la a fikir yg orang Sarawak ni cantik2 and the guy pulak hensem2. Serious. They are soo handsome and beautiful. Time tu jugak ak berangan...haha,adoiXD

Anyway,this is my story when im in Sarawak 8 years ago and i never thought that i will be here again. I am happy and you know what,,,im falling in love with Sarawak <3 p="p">

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