Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Kepada awak,,,

Saya nak kenal awak, tapi sy x nak couple, x semestinya berkawan baik tak bole taaruf.
Saya nak kenal awak sbb sy ada niat nak kawin dengan awak, sy x main-main.
Saya tahu awak perlu kan masa selepas apa yg berlaku kat awak.
Saya kadang-kadang sedih tgk awak sedih, sbb saya nak awak gembira.
Saya kadang-kadang sedih, sebab awak macam x pedulikan saya.
Saya faham awak perlukan masa.
Saya tahu saya x secantik dan secomel si dia.
Tapi saya boleh beri awak cinta dan setia.
Dengan izin ALLAH yang maha Esa.
Mungkin awak tak perasan sy beri perhatian kat awak.
Saya x suka panggil awak dengan panggilan yang kasar.
Saya sudi dengar cerita awak.
Saya cuba untuk memahami minat awak.
Saya cuba tolerate dgn awak walaupun ada masa saya terasa dengan awak.
Saya cuba terima kekurangan awak.
Saya cuba dan sudi dengar kritikan awak.
Saya ambil tahu apa yg awak minat,
Paling penting saya cuba buat awak happy.
Tapi semua perkara ni tiada guna kalau awak tak perasan dan awak x cuba utk kenal saya.
Saya tak paksa awak,
Tapi saya akan terus mencuba,
Kerana cinta itu perlu dicari sampailah kepada waktunya...


Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Another facet of life.

As salam,,,

I saw many pics from Orientation's week in UNIMAS. Wahh,,,it remind me a year ago of being a freshie. Didn't expect anything and Alhamdulillah never had homesick or missing home too much. I am surprised by it. Quite weird because I didn't feel I like to be at home unless for a period of time that u needed to go back home, to visit your parents, brother and sister. But still not for a long time.

Seeing akak-akak and abg-abg yg jadi LO, membuat saya jeles woo~. I know become a LO is a tiring one but if it fill with happiness, nothing is tiring. Become part of facilitator in Youth of Borneo (YOB), gave me hope to be a LO but luck is not on my side and I believe there is a better, awesome reason for it. God is good!

3 months living with family is something that I would appreciate and spend time with them as much as I can. Do good and help parents. Take time for personal quality time. Learn how to cook (kene blajar tok, penting tuk masa hadapan ne). Play games. Surf internet as much as I can (because after going back to UNIMAS, I dont think I will in an active mode for internet. The only time that I can get to internet was after afternoon lecture, dalam pukul 3 lebih camtu and go to lab FSS or if rajin malam turun dekat Cafe BRC). Meet friends. Off to towns. Think when your are alone in your room or be a loner (not forever alone). Cry as much as you can. Laugh like a crazy. Sing songs out loud. Sleep a lot. And most important is the time where you can spend time alone with ALLAH and says whatever you wanted, be it a small problem to big problem. Prepare your heart and mind. Be ready. It is like charging your battery phone. Take a rest for some time and when you're ready, let move on! Preparation for another 4 months is truly needed. When time come, you need to go. Go find yourself in another places.

Being a second year student, I don't expect anything but feel like it will be a lot more thing going to be happen. Joining a persatuan fakulti is a big amanah and I want and will try my best. Problems will come because life are meant to be tested. I pray to ALLAH to have a strong heart and stay in a right path. Life is not easy. We are only human, that why we have God. To surrender to him. A pain come from a heart is for HIM and from HIM. A happiness come from a heart is for HIM and from HIM. Redha.

Here I am again. Facing another facet of life. I really hope I can face the reality and be a good human. ^__^

p/s: Yee haa! beg tak kemas lagi! =D

Monday, September 2, 2013

For you, from her.

As salam,
Long time never post anything. A quick post for today. A short poem. Not really a poem. More to inspirational words I guess. Anyone can be the role but yes,I do have a solid reason what make me wrote this piece.

Terimalah,,, acece =P

You are indeed a subtle person.
Look cool outside. Inside is different.
I want to tell you, how much proud I am of you.
You did have a potential to become somebody.
You do what you think is right.
You have your own ideas.
Even if I didn't say anything about it, does not mean I'm not agree.
You become just who you are.
I can spend time to hear your thoughts.
I am delightful to do so.
If there is something we don't agree, we can always talk.
Give and take.
In silence, far from sight, I supported you.
Don't give up ya.

p/s: Esok,lusa,tulat,tubin,bertemu. ^^

Saturday, July 20, 2013

I lied.

I laughed with my friends,
I smiled to the everyone,
But how can I be happy if there is a wound in my heart?

I lied.

I lied to everyone, how happy am I, how eager am I, but the truth is,,,


I did what I think I should do,
No, I am not leaving everything behind like it was nothing,
I kept walking ahead with my memories,
for at least I didn't lied to myself.

Time healed me,
I laughed with my friends,
I smiled to everyone,

I've stopped lied.

Until then,
Came another trial.

p/s: Life indeed a though challenge. There were time of ups and downs. But that doesn't mean you have to stop trying. There were trial and errors. Embrace the life as it is.

"The best way out is always through
- Robert Frost

Monday, July 1, 2013

I am a rose with thorns.

As salam,,,

Hi everyone!

Long time no update with my blog and it is because my bb a.k.a broadband has been stop due to i lost it last year. I don't know where i place it and i had been scolded by my brother and my father. Well, peoples do sometimes misplace something and forget it. Humans are no perfect and that why pencils have erasers! Talking about perfection, I have this one song that I like and would like to show u. I find it beautiful because the words are meaningful. Plus, the rhythm is nice. It is a song by Lee Hi, and the title is Rose. I post the English lyric down below.

                                                           My love is like a red rose
It may be beautiful now
But my sharp thorns will hurt you
My love is like a red rose
Yes, I may be fragrant
But the closer you get, the more I’ll hurt you

Don’t look at me with that light glance
Don’t speak of love easily
If you want my heart, you need to take my pain too

Because you will be pricked by my thorns someday

Don’t trust me too much
You don’t know me that well yet

So just run away run away
I said ooh ooh ooh
Don’t love me
You don’t know me that well yet
I said run away just run away
Don’t come to me

My love is like a red rose
It may be beautiful now
But my sharp thorns will hurt you
My love is like a red rose
Yes, I may be fragrant
But the closer you get, the more I’ll hurt you

Seeing your confidence makes me feel so bad for you
Your confident footsteps toward me looks so pitiful today
Emotions? That’s an extravagance to me
Love? That’s Obsession’s best friend
So run away just run away
Cuz you and I must come to an end

Every rose has its thorn
Every rose has its thorn
Every rose has its thorn

Don’t trust me too much
You don’t know me that well yet
So just run away run away

I said ooh ooh ooh
Don’t love me

You don’t know me that well yet
I said run away just run away
Don’t come to me
My love is like a red rose
It may be beautiful now
But my sharp thorns will hurt you
My love is like a red rose
Yes, I may be fragrant
But the closer you get, the more I’ll hurt you.

The large font is the part where I would like to highlight. Basically, it is about when you find someone that you like and yes, you fall-in-like with the person. At first, you may see that person perfect, beautiful, handsome, and yeah, everything excellent. But, not until one day, when you know the truth about that person. You started to feel uneasy and disbelieve. Perhaps. It is normal. I think this is the line that separate the difference between love and like. When you like, it is because of something that person may have and make you entertained and happy when you see it. Only the good part of that person that you like but not as a whole. Love is when you love that person because of who he or she is. You unlikely to disappoint when he or she makes mistakes. Less of high expectations. It may not an ideal person that you dream of but, you just seems to be perfect together. Apa orang kate, saling melengkapi, haa mcm tu la. Bila ada yg kurang, yg lagi sorang akan tlg cover dan sebaliknya. Menerima dengan seadanya. Acece~ =P

This song remind a guy or girl about imperfection. Before you fall in love to someone, you have to realized something important. Let us put in this way, I think it will be easy to understand. Btw, this is just a story^^

There is a girl name Wafa, and she fall in love with this boy name, %^&8!. And that boy seems like her too. She wanted to tell the boy about how she feels. So she wrote a letter.

            Dear %#$&!,

             I do like you and you're soo nice. But before we going to any further relationship, I would like to tell you something. You may see i smiles all the times, laughing, and happy-go-lucky. But, there was a time when i feel down and i rarely show it to others. I do have flaws that only my family knew and few of my friends. I cry because i knew i was abnormal. You may feel weird of what i'm talking about. My smiles doesn't show who am I. Because of the flaws, i will hurt you. Because of the flaws, you may feel uncomfortable. Honestly speaking, if you want to go away from me or make less contact to me, please do so. I don't want to hurt you in future. I don't want you to regret later. You don't know me well yet and because of that, you might think I am perfect for you. You may say nice words to me, beautiful words. Don't be confident. Peoples do changes. You may like me at first but later who knows, you don't anymore. Maybe because at that time you already knew my flaws, and you run away from me. So, I give you a chance to do so. But if you think you're confident enough that you can confront me, and accept me as the way i am regardless of my flaws or any imperfections of mine, i am happy to know you too. 

Your sincerely,

I am sorry if the letter i wrote dalam cerita ni tak ikut format ke hape ke, well this is not EPP btw. heheXD~
When I read back, I think, agak strong ayat nya. Yeahh. This is honest. Berkata lah benar walaupun pahit pada hakikatnya. Mesti bapak terkejut that guy bila dia baca. Muehehehe~ apekah? kenapakah? mengapakah? Girls memang complicated. Sorry to say lah kan. But guys out there, you have to understand. I  think I found out about guy that they don't like ayat putar belit. Perempuan bila dia nak bercerita, they will berkias sampai lah penamatnya. Punya lah berkias dia tu sampai guys penat nak berfikir. Apakah yang cuba nak disampaikan oleh perempuan tu?. HahaXD Sebab tu lelaki tak suka berkias bagai ni, for them is the best to just tell the truth. Just honest with them. Baru mereka boleh digest apekah? mengapakah? kenapakah? I hope this letter tak kuat sgtlah kan berkiasnya. =P

Anyway, the favorite sentence of mine in this song is "every rose has its thorn". That the main point. Some of us may interpret differently of the sentence meaning and I think it depends on a person's observation or experiences. I had do the Yahoo-ing and I find this one perfect meaning.

 "...Even the rose, beautiful and enticing, is not without its flaws; the prickly thorns of the rose can poke and pierce the flesh. In fact, there is a type of plant in the Rose family, Hawthorn, whose thorns are toxic to the eye, and scratching of the cornea with it often leads to loss of vision. Even something as beautiful as a rose has its flaws..."

There are multiples adages about rose and all of them have a very nice meaning such as "He who want a rose must respect the thorn" and "From a thorn comes a rose, and from a rose comes a thorn". 

"..."He who wants a rose must respect the thorn". Here too the idea of imperfection is expressed, teaching that one can only have a loving relationship with another after respecting that individual's differences and flaws..."

"..."From a thorn comes a rose, and from a rose comes a thorn" teaches that something that begins as an imperfection or flaw can grow to be as beautiful as a rose. So too something as stunning as a rose is also not perfect, for within, there are also flaws..."

I just merely copy and paste from this website of all the meaning because I think this is the best explanation.

p/s : I love this one quote from Kak Fatima Syarha,,,Cinta boleh lenyap bersama lenyapnya sebab. Kuingin mencintainya kerana Allah. Lantaran aku yakin, hanya Allah tidak akan lenyap.”
Btw, Ramadhan is on the way! =)

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Planning time!

As salam,,,

Howdy peeps?!

There will be another few hours before i'm going back to Sarawak. Sementara ada mase ni, na cerita la kan. Based on my plan, I will not coming home until January next year which is January 2014. So, cuti after this semester, I want to take antarasesi. Although kebiasaannya antarasesi ni lebih mengutamakan senior yg na graduate because this is the time where they want to finish all the subjects mane yg x sempat na abis tu kan. Anyway, I still gonna do it, xpela, senior pun senior lah kan. Harap mereka baik-baik dgn sy =) Dalam antarasesi ni, I want to take elective courses like Languages ka, or generics ka. I really do want to learn Arabic, Iban and Chinese. I take this three language as my priority. and of course i do have my own reasons why. I will take Arabic class first. Then Iban and Chinese but as for Iban and Chinese, I do have something else the plan for both of the languages. I might not take the class formally but informal. I have few friends that can teach me Chinese and Iban. So maybe I can ask their guidance kan to teach me. I really hope so.

On my second sem mid term break, I want to travel to Sabah and stay at my friend's house. Insy-ALLAH, biiznillah. I hope this will be happen. Ramai org kate yg Sabah tempat dye cantik,pantai yg cantik, budaya yg cantik and so on la. Really excited when I heard that! And lot and lot of pictures yg nak diambil! XD I also plan to go to Bintulu, to see my bro and my friend. I plan to go on weekend because that is the only time yg ada since cuti mid sem dah occupy dgn g ke Sabah.

One problem yg paling I risau ialah,,,,,MONEYYY~ hahaXD

Igt duit PTPTN tu utk berjalan sane sini ke? hehe,,,thu punnn,,, well I try to follow what my parents said la kan. JIMAT! haha,,,memang kene TRY. Duduk U one thing yg kene blajar is mengurus kewangan. Laen la if your family is rich. Nang ku sik kesah. Jenjalan sia sitok pun sik risau la. =P

Sepanjang cuti ni, sy na mengucapkan terima kasih bnyk2 kpd kwn2 yg sudi menemani sy kuar jenjalan. Mungkin x sume, ad yg x dpt, xpe2,,, ad hikmah disebalik tu. Senyum selalu! Minta maaf jgak if ada wat salah terutama percakapan ke, message ke, chat ke. Love you guys so much!

p/s : Walau apa2 pun plan, yg tentukan adalah dgn ketentuan Illahi. Harap dpt tingkatkan prestasi belajar pasni,,,aamiin =)

Layan Matlufti jap sempena konvo eaa~~^^ Congrats.!

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Friend Forever

As salam,,,

How can I not Love you my friend?
You came to me and say good words.
We spend time together and have a conversation.
You allowed me to speak what from my heart.
You give me your time to hear what i said.
You corrected me when i was wrong.
We laughed, We smiled, We say loved when we know we are meant to be friend forever,,,

Friday, February 8, 2013

"How to" post : Fried Ice Cream (Karipap version)

As salam,,,

Evening everyone!

So long i never updated about baking or cooking, (mcm la ak ni pandai masak sgt,,ehehe =P). Today, ak na post pasal aiskrim goreng! atau lebih tepat lagi macam mane na buat nyer. I think this recipe, yg i will show today is the simplest one. Depend pada kreativiti masing2. Na buat bentuk apa2 pun bole, bentuk love ke, bentuk buku ke, bentuk ikan ke. Fun ya know! (Y) or maybe add a little colour to it by using colourful icing ke. Meriah la skit. Huhu~

This is my second post about baking sume2 ni, my first attempt is cupcake. You can find it on the list on your right. If you want la kan. Tanpa membuang masa lg, juh, jom, aram, let get started!

 Bahan- bahan:

1. Roti
2. Ice cream
3. Tepung Gandum

Cara- cara :

1. Gelekkan roti. Brape banyak pun x kesah. Jangan leper sgt sbb nnt ice cream tu terkeluar.

2. For my version, i used shape of a curry puff. Since my mom had this tiny curry puff punyer acuan. But before that, you can shaped the roti to round shape by using scissor or knife. Anything as long as you comfortable use it. 

3. Put a little amount of ice cream into it then close it by using the acuan. (actually i dont know what "acuan" word in english, sebab malas na bukak dictionary so that y i just use the word acuan, pardon me,, lolXD)

4. Don't forget to glue the curry puff using the tepung gandum. Yes, that tepung gandum is use to secure the curry puff and avoid the ice cream from spill out. Campurkan sedikit air into the tepung gandum and there it is, a glue! Instead of using it, you can also use the yellow egg as a glue. 

5. After done doing the curry puff, letakkan di satu tempat and buat lagi sampai yg korang nak. 
6. Then goreng time!

7. Jgn masak terlalu lame, just agak2 dalam satu setengah minit ke. Kalo minyak tu panas, sekejap je masak tu.
8. Ta-Da! Da siap masak bolehlah hidangkannya. Sory presentation tak cantik! =P

p/s : Hope enjoy it! 

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Kit Kat Take a Break!

As salam,,,


Yesterday, me an my friends hang out together after a long time never seen each others. Alhamdulillah, we finally meet and happy to see them.

Hari ni ak na bercerita pasal market research, pe kebende market research tu? Basically market research ni bertujuan untuk mengetahui pendapat atau komen2 pengguna seperti kite sume mengenai iklan2 di TV. Tak kisah la iklan pasal makanan ke, pencuci baju ke, minyak wangi ke. The reason why I wrote about this stuff because yesterday me and my friends had been caught up by this person and I actually didn't realize like where did she come from?. Tibe2 muncul depan mate.^^ Datang2 je trus explain kat kiteorg. She introduced to us about what she been doing and barulah kiteorg faham rupe2nyer dye sedang membuat satu research yg dipanggil market research.

She explained to us yg mereka ni sedang mencari 10 lagi org untuk mengisi borang research mereka tu. Masa tu, automatically I remembered the day when I did a research about Women and Labour in Sarawak for the Statistic subject. Masa tu ingat lagi time na cari respondents memang susah. Kiteorg buat dekat Muzium Sarawak. Waktu tu cuaca panas and mencari orang sampai terkejar2. After kiteorg finish, we actually macam berjanji pada diri sendiri yg kiteorg akan tolong org2 yg sedang buat research macam yg kiteorg buat. Time tu tersedar la kan, bukan nyer senang na cari org utk isi borang reasearch. When you have the experienced, then you know how difficult it was and you'll start to appreciate it. It was a wonderful thing doing a good deed to others. Maybe some other time, who know other peoples will help you back. ^_^

So, we agreed to help them with their research and go to their office. We then answered some questions and watched a commercial break and gave a comment about it. They planning a new commercial break for Kit Kat. First time tengok, rase pelik sebab iklan cartoon. Pastu dalam otak fikir, maybe Kit Kat nak buat pembaharuan ke instead of using real peoples why not try cartoon. Selepas tgk tu, baru la thu, iklan tu dalam pembikinan lagi and shooting pun x start lagi. That y la using cartoon. Before they aired the iklan, they want to gather feedback from the consumers. If ramai yg suke with that iklan, then they proceed with that and if not maybe they have to produce another idea to attract more peoples to eat the Kit Kat.

We spend quite a long time to fill the form sampai terlewat masuk cinema nak tengok cerite Hansel & Gretel. Tengok2 jam da pukul brape dah time tu. Itu la jugak first time lambat masuk pawagam tp nasib baik faham jalan cerita nya.huhu~ Sebenarnyer, they pay for us after we done. Macam x caye la pulak kan, senang2 je dapat duit but itu antara cara mereka untuk menghargai bantuan kite. Tengok syarikat, kalo syarikat tu besar,  maka banyak la duit yg boleh dpt and kalo bernasib baik lagi, dapat rase makanan tu. Best ke x best tuuuhhh? XD

After all, yg paling penting, bantu la orang lain selagi anda mampu dengan cara yg baik. Yg memberi itu lagi baik drpd yg menerima dan hadiah yg paling manis sekali adalah sebuah kegembiraan yg tiada nilai. Senyum tiga! =3

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Be Happy

As salam,,,

Hello everyone!

It has been a wonderful day to me. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah =') One of the best gift from HIM. The day before yesterday, result came out and i am happy for it. I longing such result for so long. I knew i will get it one day. But i know, ALLAH hears what i want and HE gives it because HE knows what best for me and what i need. Not to forget my parents who constantly gives Dua for me. Dua of parents especially from mothers are an absolute Dua. I thanked to them and i believe part of my result is coming from their Dua.

Congratulations to all of my friends. I know they already did the best! Whatever result you get, it was the best and don't fret. We still have another 5 semesters =)

The situation is normal when some of your friends get higher achievement then you do and you start feel envy or jealous. I do fall into such situation. I start to comparing myself with them. I start to questioning my ability. Where did i wrong? Why i can't get the same result like them? I had try my best but why? I have been into a school where most of the students are excellent students. They got 3.5 each of the semester. No kidding. Some of them get 100% for Add math while i fail for it! How can i not be jealous???

One day, i opened the Quran and i found this verse,,,

And do not wish for that by which Allah has made some of you exceed others. For men is a share of what they have earned, and for women is a share of what they have earned. And ask Allah of his bounty. Indeed Allah is ever, of all things, Knowing.
(Al-Nisa : 32)

 Dan janganlah kamu iri hati limpah kurnia yang Allah telah berikan kepada sebahagian dari kamu (untuk menjadikan mereka) melebihi sebahagian yang lain (tentang harta benda, ilmu pengetahuan atau pangkat kebesaran). (Kerana telah tetap) orang-orang lelaki ada bahagian dari apa yang mereka usahakan, dan orang-orang perempuan pula ada bahagian dari apa yang mereka usahakan; (maka berusahalah kamu) dan pohonkanlah kepada Allah akan limpah kurnianya. Sesungguhnya Allah sentiasa Mengetahui akan tiap-tiap sesuatu.
( 4 : 32 )

Then i pondered, do i have to get jealous with their result? No, i don't have to because in that verse teach me  that everyone will get what they have worked out. Effort what is important. Outcomes reflect your effort. In fact i should be happy because they are my friends and seeing them happy makes me happy. Well said Wafa, lolXD But there is an exception, if you are jealous make it as an inspiration to boost your spirit to achieve an excellent result for the next exam. Yeahhh!! =D

"Ilmu yang bermanfaat adalah ilmu yang diamalkan dalam kehidupan kita"
- Imam Al-Ghazali - 

p/s : Believe in HIM, remember HIM everyday, thanks to HIM, tell HIM, ask HIM, and smile.

Friday, January 18, 2013

Pelancongan Domestik

As salam,,,

Hi yalls!

Alhamdulillah, finally, the day has come. My parents coming today! Along with my bro and my aunty! Yeayeayeayeayeayeay!! Beselah,,,anak blajar kat Sarawak, alang2 tuh pergi la makan hangin sekali =P I tak kisah pun kalau my parents nak tiap2 minggu ke bulan ke datang makan angin kat Sarawak, (kalau ekao banyak duit xpo lah yo) because my parents, dyorang suke berjalan sebenarnyer. In fact when my sis and bro were little, my parents suke sgt bawak dyorang ni pergi jenjalan. But, when it comes to my childhood, hilang sudah suma bende itu. HahaXD I don’t mind. When you get old, mood2 nak jenjalan ni dah hilang. Mana nak larat pergi jauh2. Mengharapkan si anak yang membawa mereka pergi berjalan2. Kiranya, my parents dtg sini, I bawak pergi jenjalan la. Puas hati dapat tgk dyorang travel even though percutian domestik saja but what is worth is the happiness that they gain. I am glad, I am here at Sarawak so I can bring them to explore the Sarawak. I wish to bring them to rumah panjang ke, meet the peoples there, to see how beautiful Sarawak is. Maybe one day ke. =D

My mom always told me, “Nanti adik dah kerje jadi Felo ke nanti, bawaklah mak pergi jenjalan kat Sarawak,,,mana tahu adik dpt kerja kat Sabah ke, bawak mak pergi jenjalan kat sana pulak”. Mak sy suke sgt kalo sy jadi Felo, I don’t know why but I told my mom yg I nak jadi tutor. Last2 my mom kata, “Ha,takpelah,,,dah Rina minat yg tu.” Love you mom <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

I dreams to bring my parent pergi China yg tempat2 China muslim tu. I know that they will love it. And I want to go to Forbidden City. To see the Ancient China. To see tempat tinggal Raja2 zaman Dinasti like Ching , Ming.  To see the place where the Concubines live before. The beautiful lakes and amazing architecture. To see the pintu gerbang that they use for the bride to came in into the Forbidden City. And bnyk la lagi. I like China’s History.  Last but not least, the food! lolXD

But before travel overseas, I wanted to travel around Malaysia first. Baru layak kan pergi luar Negara. Hehe~ Actually, doesn’t matter pun if you tak travel negeri2 yg ada kat Malaysia ni. But for me, see the Malaysia first. Then baru ada rase, wahhh,,,cantik nyer Negaraku ini. Yes! Memang cantik. The meaning of cantik for me maybe tak sama dengan orang lain kan. It depends. Lengkapkanlah dulu destinasi percutian domestik sebelum melengkapkan percutian ke luar Negara. Chehhh,,,what a description! lolXD

Now, when i am here at Sarawak, baru rase, bnyk lagi kat Malaysia ni yg ak tak explore. Serious. The negeri2 yg I dah lawat, Pahang, Kelantan, Terengganu, Melaka, Penang, Negeri Sembilan of course lahh kan XP and Sarawak. Sabah, Perlis, Perak, Kedah, Johor , I tak pernah lagi. Kesian kan,,,johor pun tak pernah. Bukan Johor I tak pernah tapi pernah sekali, beli langsir kat Tangkak masa umur 10 tahun tak silap la. Perak pun pernah, sebab rumah makcik I ada kat Tanjung Malim. Sabah, Insy-ALLAH, kalo diizinkan oleh ALLAH,,,mmg nak pergi since kawan pun ramai dari sana. My mom da approve kan dah utk I pergi bercuti kat Sabah.hehe=) Asalkan ada kawan2 yg pergi sekali.

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Sunday, January 13, 2013

An answer that i need to find in my life.

As salam,,,

Here i am! Sitting on my favorite place in CAIS and all alone. Kesian nyer bunyi ae~ Yela, CAIS pun x ramai orang, brape kerat je yg dtg mentelaah buku. Reason why i came to CAIS bcoz nak internet laju je. Bole tgk youtube and tgk movies. Download some songs ka and read books. Since all my friend da sampai kat rumah, I still terpacak kat UNIMAS lagi. Never mind, I love being here anyway. But na jenjalan,,,hmm,,,oh ya, recently i just thought that i want keluarga angkat kat Sarawak ni. Senang skit, kalo pe2 hal jadi ke,,,at least ad org yg tgkkan. And one more thing, i hope to see how peoples here punye life in a family kan. I dont mind if i get a non-muslim nyer family. Lagi suke =) But nak cari nyer I don't know how. Hope somebody willing to help me. Mesti wonder kan why i like non muslim family angkat? Even though susah sbb you have to take care you nyer aurat and eating la and perform a prayer. Pastu rase bersalah pun ada la because of the differences. Tak try x thu kan? Well, i like to experience something different. I want to feel the differences.

Am i afraid? Yes. Am i excited? Yes.

I am afraid because i might getting away from what i supposed to do. Ok, senang citer tkut jauh dr ALLAH. Because u have been a  place where there is no one yg muslim and there is no one yg mengingatkan u about ALLAH. Lagipun, the way they live is far from a muslim family la kan. Takut terpengaruh. Yup. That yg I tkut. Same like I want to be an participant observer one day- Insy-ALLAH- where you have to live in a stranger place. A place that is differences from your way of life. To have to observe tu ok la kan but becoming the participant in their everyday life. That I risau. If some of their everyday life tu contradict to your religion mcm na? Takkan you na ikut? If you tak ikut, how you want to become a REAL participant observer then? you're not fully participate. I didn't find any of the answer yg dpt legakan hati I lagi. I don't want to think it susah because bile dah set kan mind susah, the consequences will be susah. It same when you want to judge people, once you da set kan mind you that people is tak baik la,jahat la. Benda baik dalam diri org tu or perkara baik yg org tu da buat you tak nampak dah.Sama jugak la kan, bila you kate diri you je yg betul, takde yg salah, mmg tak la nak nampak kesalahan sendiri dan susah nak terima teguran orang lain.

Tapi one thing yang I rase, na cari ALLAH tu, tak kisah pun kat mana you berada. Sebab ALLAH tu ada kat mana2 je. Sesetengah orang laen cara dia cari ALLAH tu, or islam tu sendiri. Tak boleh na kate jalan nak cari ALLAH tu fixed. Islam is flexible. Paling penting kene percaya dan yakin ALLAH tu and pray a lots. Ada orang jumpe islam tu kat tempat yg bukan muslim majority nyer. I pun pelik. Acamano tu? Hidayah ALLAH tu sgt luas. Kene cari. Kene usaha. I believe in that.

Kadang2 bile blajar antropologi and sosiologi ni sgt mencabar dan takut. Tak thu la kalo I sorang je yg rase. Because u might encounter something yang opposite dgn religion. Waktu tu la, otak I fikir punye fikir punye fikir. Kadang2 kecewa sebab agak sukar nak cari jawapan tapi I tahu, cannot give up because finally I dah jumpe course yg betul2 buat I enjoyed study. So, why should I stop? I believe sume masalah ada jalan penyelesaian and I should find it till I puas hati. Bukan senang nak cari satu subject yg you betul2 minat dan enjoyed. That what i feel la kan.

I just reached 20 years old. Still a lot of time for me to find the answer. Alhamdulillah, ALLAH bg bernafas lagi. I have to find as many experience as i can. Experience is the MOST VALUABLE thing yg boleh dapat free saje. Easy kan? =)

Wednesday, January 9, 2013


As salam,,,

Howdy peeps!
Just this lately, i’ve been thinking about meaning of marriage. Yes, we are talking about marriage. Suke kan? Hehe~ This question came out while i’m reading the social sciences slide and been wondering about it for quite sometimes. Definition of marriage is:

“The union of a man & a woman, or various combinations thereof, living together in a sexual relationship with the expectation of producing offspring

I will say that this definition is almost correct. When we come into the definition of something, it is difficult to produce a total correct definition of it. Trust me, in one of the lecture of Communication and Society, we have to define a chair and after we define it, but there must be lack of something. Thus, it is not totally wrong but almost correct. The same when we want to define Religion. According to Durkheim, one of the famous figures in ansos, stated that it is really hard to give a specific meaning to the word religion because we have to consider the cultural diversity.

For me marriage means to foster sense of safety, security and belonging. Well, of course we do have God who watches us 24 hours and totally safe, Insy-ALLAH but because of HIS love, He gives us someone that can take care of us in this dunya. He knows what we want and He actually fulfil it. When He will give it? We don’t know so be patient la kan. I pun tgh be patient ni ^^V Dont worry be happy. I know sometimes we tend to follow our desired and hard to control. We’re just human that why we have god to help us. Ask for his guidance and make duas everyday,everytime,anywhere in any languages ,English,BM,Sarawak ke,sabah ke,korea ke,jepun ke,,,He definitely will understand because He was perfect. Whatever that is exist in this world, He knows :D

My ustazah has told to us once, if you want to pray, no need to be formal, just talk like we talk to our parent ka,sibling ka...cam bese. Example, “Hari ni kan Ya ALLAH, ak rase hepy sgt sebabnyer ak dpt jawab exam dgn baik, Terima kasih ya ALLAH’’ ataupun yg ni, “Hari ni kan Ya ALLAH,,ak nampak dye senyum,,,suke2! Tp kan Ya ALLAH, ak tahu ak mesti jage hati ak ni,,Ya ALLAH maaf kalau ak melampaui batas, lindungilah hati ak ni ya ALLAH drpd perkara2 yg x baik.” Simple kan? J

We always read peoples’ post on FB saying that better you telling your feeling to ALLAH than the FB. It’s true but still no wrong in posting about your feeling or opinion onto something in FB but be control. Ustaz Don had mentioned about this issue, I know that most of us want to be a excellent muslim and mukmin but the capacity of each of us in doing something is different. When you want to say that you must only tell your feeling to ALLAH, looked at the subject or the people that you projected to. Is he or she someone who really pious? Or just orang bese? If he or she was a totally pious person, then go ahead with the statement. But if they were the latter, better telling them “it is ok to luahkan perasaan kat FB but must be choose and control.”

Actually i wanted to talked about marriage but tersasar jauh pulak.huu.Never mind, we can always continue. The most important thing that should have in a marriage is faith. Some of the married couples have to be far apart because of the work mostly. Away to do some research la kan,,,i think will become one of it...anyway, the role of faith played the important part here. I believe, as long as you believe in you partner, jauh mane pun terpisah, lama mane pun terpisah, sikda padam bara cinta dalam hati ya.

Marriage terbina atas dasar the understanding and the feeling of believe, secure you had for someone before marry with them. Understanding here mean you accept the way your partner is. Some peoples think that the more sameness you get with your partner such as hobby, food, drink ka, the more understanding you are or compatible. For me, it is ok if it was not the same because the different between you and the partner what make you more understand and compatible. Saling melengkapi dan memerlukan orang kate kan. Kalo dah dua2 asyik same je dari setiap sudut, bosan kot,,,dull, x interesting. But xde lah sume x same,mesti ada chemistry gak,,,mathematic ke,fizik ke,,,hahaXD  And that chemistry is something that will come when it is the time.

So,,,this is my opinion and principal. Different peoples, different principal, ways, opinion. Itulah ciri manusia kan, unik. Apa2 or mane2 pendapat sy raikan. Seronok dgr pendapat org boleh menambah ilmu J

p/s : 2 papers lagi,,,pastu abis exam!... Final sem 1 drpd 6 sem,,,hahaXD